Benci.

I'm so p*ssed off right now... ><

All i need to do is just going home, hometown I mean~

I wonder how nice it will be to sit together with my mom,
watching Indonesian serial movie with my mom...
While some times hears my brother laughing at himself, or at his game...
Or my father some times opens the door, saying some things he just found at the internet...
With NOTHING bothering me...

I wonder how nice it will be to sit together with "him",
at my house's front bench,
talking about all things we want to talk,
While looking ahead at the city lamps..

You know,
I was hoping that I can be happy being as what I want myself to be here...
But I was rorally wrong.
I found NOBODY here! NOBODY!
I always wanted to tell myself that,
"hey, everything's gonna be okay..."
But the fact is that NOTHING is okay from me..
I just look like a clown~
Who always required to smile,
Vecos I don't want them to worry about me...
But sometimes it's just too hard!!

Can somebody help me?
Can you???