Today~June 28, 2008

Hmm..

A usual saturday morning of mine.

Woke up, having shower, chat with friends, went out to eat, checked friendster...

posting a blog.

Actually I dunno what to write but I feel like really want to express anything in my mind right now in this blog. :-)

Part 1 - Presentation

Well,,

Yesterday I have done my graphic design presentation quite smoothly, although it was really rushed at the morning. I woke up, took a shower, and opened my wardrobe-- OMG I forgot that my Mom has already took my formal shirt home that day!! I really had no idea about it that time~~

Then.. I looked for my other shirt and fortunately I found a shirt that at least CAN be suited with the coat. Huuffffff Thanks God........ hahahahaha..

That was about the shirt. After that,, I tried to wear the pants and the coat. God it's too big on me.......... Ohhhh!!!!! But it's OK... I don't have choice anymore. So I wore it to the presentation.

Finally I wore the shoes... OK, good enough.

humm,, out of my expectation,, the shoes were making my toes hurted alot!!!

Oh God...... Another problem came.... HUwaaaaaa...... >.<

Then~~

The presentation was quite interesting,, but I felt that the lecturer didnt trust me that I drew the whole assignment myself-OK, except the magazine page.

(How come the color become like this??)

Doesnt matter.

Back to the topic. don't you think it's hurt?? huks.. Maybe it was just because I was too much thinking. Well I hoped so...

However,, the presentation is great.. And we got took photo there!!

Uhmm,, I hope all of us will get high marks. :-)

Part 2 - Random feelings~

Out of a sudden,, these words came into my mind today when I was sitting alone at my room,, listening the songs on the laptop and drinking the yoghurt I bought yesterday at pyramid.

Sometimes we forgot,,

that actually

Dating is a relationship,,

Not a project to be done..

We never know when it will be ended.

The only thing we have to know is that~

We have to try our best to love..

To understand..

As best as we can.

Then..

When the time came..

Let it go..

We have to be strong,,

We have to tell ourselves that,,

When a thousand tears rolled out our eyes,,

That time also

A million happiness will come after them.

Hmmm... Those words.. I forgot when and where I learnt them.. But I think it is very beautiful and touching~~

::end::

P.S. Happy belated birthday to bryan!!!!! :-)

Nah I give u a cake~

Hehehehe...

Have a nice day everyone!!

what i have learned todayyy

Today I have learned many things~~

• What we think is true,, doesnt mean always true on others'.
• Semakin kita deket sama orng, bukan berarti kita bisa entengin dan gak hargain dia.
• A thing that is out of our control is useless to be always thought.
• What we have seen on others are actually mirror of ourselves.
• Consider first before telling something to someone.

Humm,,

I have understand these all and I hope I can start to practice those things in my next days.

Ciayo!! :)

miserable me~

I dunno what has happened to my life lately. It's seems like everything so messed up and none of them has made me even smile... I always pretend to be happy, pretend nothing happened...

I always wondered if I have all of my lovely family.. My lovely relatives and friends here...

Maybe I can always share my pain to them. No, no. Actually I can share my pain to all of my friends here... But I don't want.. I'm too tired of all that stuffs sticking my brain everyday...

God.. Am I really that evil???

I even make her parent cry,, isn't it crazy?? But I really don't know what to do...

She just can't understand what I feel actually. But the worst thing that is I really don't understand what to tell her because there are TOO MANY that I have to tell her~~~

God I'm wondering why it must be ME that telling her all the truth.. why?

Tuhan.. aku gak tau lagi hrs gmn... ngerti kok kalo hidup ini susah. Tapi aku rasa aku sudah jalaninya sebisa dan terbaik menurut aku. Aku bahkan gak tau aku harus gimana buat bikin orang itu ngerti apa yg salah dari hidup dia... Aku gak tau sih,, apa bener dia salah.. atau akunya yg kurang sabar? Kalo memang aku kurang sabar.. Semoga dia dapet yg lebih sabar dr aku kapan2..

Tuhan... Kalau mesti akhirnya gini.. Ngapain sih aku mesti kenal dia?? Aku ngerti pasti ada hikmah setelah kejadian ini. Tapi kejadian ini bener2 bikin aku kapok deket sama orang Tuhan... Padahal aku bukan orng yang bisa nyimpen masalah sendiri dalam pikiran aku.

Aku.Harus.Gimana???

I even trying not to tell my boyfriend about this. Even my Mom, my Dad, my friends in Indonesia.

I'm not telling them.

God I'm really regret to know her. To get close to her. I'm really regretted.

She said that she is disappointed to me. She said that I'm just like a little kid who cannot control my mood to other people around me. God why she never reflect herself whether there is something-well,many things-that is ANNOYING about her? Why she blamed everything to me??

Well I know that actually I don't know if she has reflected herself or not but God-it's hurt~~

It's hurt to know that she said she is disappointed of me, whereas I'm trying my best to always be patient to her.

It's hurt to know that she is always trying to say that she is true.

It's hurt to know that she is never understand her fault.

It's hurt to know that I USED TO be her friend.

and I think it is not so important to tell your friend that your Mom cry when she heard your story.

Is it??

-conclusion-

I regret that I have her in my life. Thanks God to give her to me. This is however a great experience for me.